I'm tired of everything being a struggle.
I'm tired of having to beat the odds.
I'm tired of fighting for the smallest bits of happiness.
I'm tired of waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I would like for something...anything...to just be easy for a while.
It seems that our township plans to rezone the 230 acres behind ours to accomodate a 75-year expansion of a landfill that is currently almost a mile away. This expansion will bring the landfill close. Too close.
Our township officials' response? If we don't like it, we should move.
Given the state of our exhaustion, we think we're going to do just that (and give a big old F*** YOU to this place that is literally turning into a dump). If this had happened a few short years ago, we would have fought...hard. Now, it just makes us immeasurably sad to see our dreams so easily devalued.
I can tell you why there is an inherent distrust of the government...even local government. Because they'd sell you out in a heartbeat...with an, "I'm sorry...I feel for you...but I'm going to screw you over anyway."
I guess we've learned (a very expensive) lesson. Another lesson. I'm so f***ing tired of learning lessons already.
So now we just need to figure out the ins and outs of unloading our house without crippling ourselves financially. Should be fun.