Jill has died and her daughter will celebrate her 10th birthday in nine days without her. All three of her daughters will celebrate all of their birthdays without her from now on. A friend reminded me that today would have been Lisa's 46th birthday. I miss her. I hope she greets Jill with a big hug and an even bigger bottle of wine. In six days I will celebrate Mother's Day and commemorate the deaths of my babies...on the same day. As Jill would say, it's just wrong...all of it. If anyone needs me, I'll be the curled up in a corner waiting for May to be over.