Monday, October 29, 2007

Dead baby soundtrack

Someone (I'm sorry, I can't remember who), posted about the incessant chorus that plays in the background ALL.THE.TIME.

Mine is here...non-stop...singing...taunting...

32 weeks
just four more
you think you'll make it?
another day closer
Alex died at 35 weeks
what makes you think you'll get that precious extra week?
what makes you think this will work?
a living baby?
you're not that special
you only have dead babies now
dead babies
dead babies
dead babies


It's got a terrible tune, and you just can't dance to it.

6 comments:

Marcia said...

Oh, Catherine, I just don't even know what to say, for fear it will sound trite. Just know that you and Myles are constantly in my thoughts and prayers, and I can't wait for the day when you will be able to dance that tune out of existence, with one of triumph and great joy!

ms. G said...

Yep, yours is very similiar to the one that gets started in my head when I have to the nerve to feel hopeful and actually picture having baby girl at home.

Aurelia said...

I'm sorry, but this actually has made me laugh a little. I just keep picturing attempting to sing this. And the dance....maybe I'll make one up tonight?

Oh God, sometimes I can be sick...

Cass said...

No words...just H-U-G-E (((((HUGS))))). Please know that I think of you and little Myles daily.
**Deep breaths**

Shinny said...

I thought we talked about this before Missy. These thoughts were supposed to be banished. This is a different pregnancy and this baby is going to come home to a house filled with love and he will be FINE!!!!!
Don't make me come to your house. ;)

PS. I so know what you are going through and it is not fun. But we are in this together, remember?

Julia said...

Sadly, I can't imagine there is a way to banish this soundtrack except by taking a live baby home. I so wish that for you.