So we talked about it.
There were tears.
We don't want to adopt right now. And I don't want to be pregnant right now.
Sam will probably go to school in August and we'll save some of that daycare money for a bit...and save up some vacation time (without doctor appointments or funerals to attend).
So I guess that's that. For right now anyway.
I feel relieved. So I think this is the right decision for now.