Monday, October 03, 2005

Nothing on Amazon.com

I have searched and searched and searched...
Though some purport to provide you with the one-size-fits-all method to deal with grief and loss, there is no guide to finding your happiness again after the universe has kicked you in the teeth and stolen your baby. There isn't a single thing written that I haven't thought or said myself...nothing that will help me deal with this any better than I am. There are a gazillion books on pregnancy, post-pregnancy weightloss, and how to care for your new baby. But there are none that will lead me, like a treasure map, to the end of the rainbow where I will find joy again.

Maybe I'll try eBay.

7 comments:

deadbabymama said...

You could turn this on it's head and think that if you can't find anything new written on the subject maybe you have things in hand and you just have to work at it and wait it out. And/or you might feel like you need help that is a little more personal than that which you might find on amazon.com, or ebay, or even in the 'escorts' section of the yellow pages ;)

gabesmama said...

Let's burn all pregnancy books though. Can we please! I hate them all!

Sweet Coalminer said...

There is no "He's Just Not That Into You" for heartbreak.

When I was grieving for a family member, I used to go back and read my diary about him and look at cards and pictures.

Your blog is so beautifully written.

Does it help you to go back and read it?

msfitzita said...

If you find it, please let me know. I've been searching for it too.

I'm beginning to have the feeling that the dirty little secret is there IS no one, perfect way to heal after losing a piece of your heart.

Because heaven forbid something should be easy...

Jill said...

At least you haven't given up the search Catherine. At least you still wake up every day and want it to get better.

As awful as it is that you ever had to write even one word of this blog, when you write about looking for joy again, there is so much hope in that. It certainly shows by example that there is very little in life that can give you the excuse to give up.

As always, you just amaze me ((hugs))

deadbabymama said...

I love the idea of burning all the preganancy books! While we are at it could we burn every episode of "A Baby Story" too?!

vixanne wigg said...

There is an interesting book written by the founder of the MISS foundation called Dear Cheyenne. Have you seen it? I was given it by the dear woman who runs the local chapter here.

I think that reading people's daily experiences with grief and loss are more helpful than any of the books I've read.