Earlier this week I risked seeming like a complete lunatic and emailed the hospital where I delivered Alex. I asked them if they could tell me what soap was used to wash up the babies in the nursery. I just wanted to smell my boy again that badly.
Apparently it wasn't too strange of a question, because the hospital answered by telling me that they use Johnson & Johnson Head to Toe Baby Body Wash on all the babies in the nursery. I was able to buy some tonight at Walmart and I love it! THAT is the smell I cherish. I'm seriously contemplating what I can wash with it so that I can be reminded when I want/need to be reminded.
But I have to tell you that what I love even more is the knowledge that Alex was treated the way all the other babies are treated...he was given the same love and care in the nursery that is afforded to those babies that live and breathe. I don't know why it means so much to me, but it does.
I'm off to sniff some body wash. Sleep tight!