Carli Mae was born on Tuesday, March 20th at 11:12 a.m. by c-section. She was pink and perfectly beautiful. Her daddy went to the NICU with her while the doctors tried to stabilize her for the trip to Children's Hospital. Her parents found out at a 29-week ultrasound that Carli suffered from Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia.
Despite everyone's best efforts, Carli could not stay on this earth with her family. She was taken off the ventilator and she died at 11:32pm, exactly 12 hours and 20 minutes after she was born. Her family was able to bathe her and dress her in the super sweet pink creeper that said, "Daddy's little girl," and the soft socks, and the hat that her great grandma crocheted for her. Then they did the thing that no parent should have to do...they said goodbye to their baby and let her go.
I have never met Darcie, Carli's mom. But we have been friends since we both logged online to the "Due in June 2002" message board. She is an amazing and beautiful woman with an amazing and beautiful family. And now she joins this club of mothers with invisible children...this club that we all hate but have no choice about our membership.
The visitation is tonight and the funeral is tomorrow.
Darcie, my dear friend...if you need me, I will be there. You name it and it is yours. I never wanted anyone to understand this pain. It is one thing to meet people this has happened to...it is quite another for it to happen to someone you consider a friend. I love you and I am so so sorry.