So of course, I get this wonderfully sweet message today...
I hope you don't think this is too weird that I'm writing you. We were on the Due in June (2005) board together -- my B and your Alex were due within a few days of each other. I always felt an extra bit of connection to you then, because your Sam and my E are about the same age too.
Anyway... for some reason, you and Sam and Alex have been in my thoughts a lot lately. I haven't been on SheKnows in a while, but I came back today to check in and see if I could find you. And I did.
I just want to tell you how very, very sorry I am for the loss of your son Travis earlier this year. I know there's nothing I can say to help (and I certainly hope I'm not hurting you more by writing to you).
I just wanted to tell you that I think of you and your boys often. I hope that you're finding some peace.
You know, it never ceases to amaze me...the connections that I've made in this life.
Sometimes when I'm driving around at night, I will peek into the windows of homes lit up with life inside and I will wonder who they are and what they hold dear to their hearts. I wonder what happiness they have experienced and what sadness they must endure. And I feel a little bit sad that their life will pass and I may never actually get to know them.
But this thing called the internet has created some very valuable connections for me. I actually get the privilege of making a connection with some of the people in those houses. Instead of just whizzing by on the street, I get to talk to you all and learn about you and your lives. Perhaps part of it is that misery loves company. But that isn't what keeps me here. What keeps me here is the limitless love and compassion...the countless stories and anecdotes...you people and your lives...who invite me in and make me feel a little less alone in this world.
Thanks for the reminder K. And thanks to everyone else who has offered a kind word or a thought for me and my family. We truly appreciate each and every one of you.