Tuesday, August 01, 2006

And now for something completely different

We've met Milo.

And he is beautiful...perfect. And Justin and Laura look so utterly happy that I can not describe it.

There are only a few things in this world that have ever moved me to tears of joy. But this moment joins that short list. Sitting in the hospital room, I turned my head and caught sight of Justin holding his son and looking so in love that it literally took my breath away. Father and son.

And when I asked them to pose for a family photo for me, I almost had to pinch myself to believe what I was seeing. Mother and father and son...a family.

I think of all Laura and Justin have been through. And now, seeing them with their new baby. I can't say it makes it all worth it because that wouldn't do justice to Hans' memory. But I can say that it makes things a little bit better. That beautiful baby boy...Milo...their son...finally.

They are both such kind wonderful people. We were strangers and yet they offered us love and supportive kindness more times than we can count throughout the last year. They came to be friends and they stood by us on one of the worst days of our lives. To see them now makes me want to weep with happiness for them.

They let us hold him and it was a very strange experience for me. He moved and I was...surprised. It's been so long since I've held a living baby...

I think he looks like a perfect combination of the two of them and they're going to have to watch out for the trail of broken hearts he is sure to leave in his wake as he grows up. I know he's already got me wrapped around his little finger.

I was worried I would leave there feeling sad...self-pity. I am, after all, the friend who has buried two babies...not exactly the person you'd think to invite to celebrate the birth of your miracle. But something has shifted in me...at least for today...at least in this moment. I feel some sadness, sure, I can admit that. But mostly I feel happiness and love for this new family. Our friends and their son. I could say it a million times and it would sound just as sweet. Our friends and their son.

Thank you for the invitation Justin and Laura. It was our pleasure meeting Milo. And we look forward to hearing all the stories as he grows up and fills your lives with love and happiness.

(I did take pictures, but promised not to publish them. Some things are better left for the happy family to share with the world.)

Happy Birthday Milo!

7 comments:

Jill said...

You deserve a good baby moment as much as they do. Congrats to you, Aunt Catherine;)

Anam Cara said...

That was beautiful Catherine. Big ((hugs)) to you.

Bronwyn said...

That must have been a very emotional visit. It shows a tremendous openess of spirit to share that moment with so much love and happiness, especially given everything you've been through. Much love to Laura, Justin and Milo, and to you, Catherine.

kate said...

Wow, i am so glad (and a little jealous!) you got to see the famous Milo Z...and that it went well for you, too. And yes, your post was just beautiful...

deadbabymama said...

How wonderful that you went to visit! And what a wonderful post.

Sherry (Hallesmom) said...

How wonderfully sweet :)

lauralu said...

catherine, it means the world to me that you came to be with us. i look forward to you holding milo many more times - until he gets too old to permit it. :)