Friday, March 31, 2006

15 weeks

Just a little freakout...ok...a bit more than a little freakout.

I just don't FEEL pregnant. If it weren't for my sore breasts (sorry if that's too much information), I wouldn't even think I am pregnant.

Have I been so successful in my denial that this is the result? Or maybe I'm not pregnant? Maybe I wished it away? I feel like crying, so maybe I am pregnant (and hormonal)?

The pregnancy calendar says I've officially entered the second trimester. But maybe I haven't really.

Oh holy hell...now I know how insane this is going to make me.

6 comments:

kate said...

I would say call your OB and go get checked out. Just for your own piece of mind. Oh DUH it is Friday, you would have to go to the ER and they would treat you like a nutcase. Hmmm...know anyone with a doppler? I know you do...

msfitzita said...

Catherine, I mean this in the kindest possible way - you sound very pregnant. :)

If you're worried, under the circumstances I think your doctor(s) will certainly understand your need for reassurance and maybe even additional appointments. I would call if you think it will ease your mind.

But trust me, you sound like a pregnant lady. ;)

Lots of ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))). I don't mean to make light of your fears. I can only imagine how desperately hard this is - and how frightening it must be too.

Kathy McC said...

just try to breathe....it's going to be okay. ((((hugs)))) I know what you're going through and it stinks. I wish I could say something smart to make you feel better, but I know that only time will help that.

Runelady said...

Maybe, darling daughter, seeing the doc every two weeks might be a good idea - for your peace of mind. I love you - your mom.

Jill said...

Oh boy, I remember working myself up into an absolute frenzy on more than one occasion. I made a point to explain my mental state to my OB and that it may mean I need extra reassurance by way of his trusty u/s machine until my own doppler could do that job at home.

It was 15 wks and some days before I could get a h/b on command. And only 2 short weeks later I could feel her moving.

Just do what you have to to stay as sane as possible and who cares if they think you are nuts? *We* know better :)

Tendersoul said...

I went through the exact same thing. It was around that time, also. I was so scared. Because I was high risk, I was able to see my OB every other week.

By all means, please go see your OB. Ask your for more frequent visits. I can't imagine that a good Doctor would deny you that.