Please don't apologize for commenting. That anyone takes the time to read my ramblings still amazes me. That anyone takes the time to actually comment is more helpful than you can ever know. It makes me feel less...alone. It gives me something by which to measure my insanity...just to see if I'm on track for a white jacket sooner or later than I anticipate.
As to the comments about God and his plan...
I suppose it's supposed to be some comfort that people believe Alex is in heaven or that his death has some meaning or purpose.
It's just not as comforting as you would think...when all I have of my baby is a cold headstone and a box of momentos.