Thursday, December 31, 2009

Jumping in with both feet

So I find out I'm pregnant, get sick, and immediately lose my mind. It's just a sinus infection. Granted, it's the worst sinus infection I've ever had...because I can't take a damn thing for it...but it's not like I have the plague or anything. But the thoughts still creep in.

~I'm so sick, surely this pregnancy is doomed.
~I'm putting myself through the ringer not taking antibiotics and it's all so silly because this pregnancy is doomed.
~How will I un-tell everyone when this doomed pregnancy meets its untimely end?
~Baby's probably already dead anyway.

Yeah...you get the idea.

And I know it's me...it's totally me. I'm a complete freakshow. I can't just be normal...think normal...feel normal.

My OB had the best line...

Hang tight, try not to despair, and I'll see you soon.

Seriously...try not to despair. That is PERFECT! That is EXACTLY the kind of thing someone should say to someone like me after "congratulations." Don't try to be cute or hopeful or positive...just call it like it is...

Try not to despair.

6 comments:

Kathy McC said...

Stop it! (this from the woman who said the hat wasn't meant to be .) ;)

Michele said...

I know... It's hard. But try... Trying is all we can do sometimes (no matter what Yoda says!)

Jelly-Filled said...

I hope your sinus infection clears up soon. And as for the scary thoughts, I'm sorry it feels like this. (((Hugs)))

marcia said...

Dr. A....right? am I remembering that correctly? You always did like him! :) Glad he is still around for you this pregnancy!

MB said...

That's right up there with "don't worry, it will be over before you know it!" Uh yeah idiot, that's what I'm afraid of.

kate said...

How about 'take deep breaths'? Probably not possible with the current sickness...i hope you feel better very soon!