Friday, March 28, 2008


I don't deny that I'm fat. I know I'm fat. But there is something about being denied supplemental life insurance benefits because I'm fat that hurts a little bit.

A height and weight measurement above the medically recommended standard presents an increased risk of mortality and of developing certain adult onset health problems including: diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol.

Yes, I've had a lot to deal with the last three years. But it's clear that excuses won't work anymore. I've got to get this under control. But first I think I'm going to have a good cry.


Ruby said...

I'm so sorry. Unfortunately, I know what it feels like. *sigh*

Kathy McC said...


Runelady said...

Remember when your dad lost his job? We tried for two years to get me health insurance but because I'm diabetic, I was refused, over and over and over and over. Now I'm spending his retirement working so I can be insured and I have - HAVE - to work until I'm 65 Trust me daughter, I know about crying over insurance. Mom

Aurelia said...

I'm so confused....isn't there an exception for post-partum women? Yes, eventually you need to lose the weight, but you can't right now. 9 months up, and 9 months down. And frankly, considering your history, it may take longer.

So yes, get some more exercise, if you wish, and eat better, but please be gentle with yourself. Take your time, and be realistic with your goals.

Jelly-Filled said...

I'm with you, my friend.

Whatever you do, do it for your health, and do it lovingly. And know that you are beautiful just as you are.

((Hugs and more hugs.))

GROWby40 said...

I know how you feel. I finally got to the point where I decided I cannot use grief as an excuse for overeating anymore and started my new weight loss blog - It is really hard though esp when anniversaries come around. A person has to commit to it 100% and really want it. I am starting to feel the benefits now as I am feeling much better about myself. Why don't you join me on the blog? Send me your details and I will publish it. Then you will feel more determined to achieve. Sorry, too much pressure. I would just like you to be able to find an aspect of you life where you can take control. Hmm, I think I can do a post on that - taking control of one's life. See, you can find inspiration in all sorts of places!!!

Bronwyn said...

Ugh, that's the kind of reminder no one needs... Good luck with the fitness plan (I am in a similar boat, so I can empathize) -- know that you'll have tons of support, if ever you need it!

Sherry said...

Those buggers gave you that song and dance, too? Ugh.

We applied for supplemental life insurance about 6 mos. after losing Ryan and were denied for a slew of reasons, height/weight ratio included.

Let them lose a baby (or two) and see if their waistbands expand a teeny bit.