Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Goodbye sweet baby Peyton

Her name is Cass and her first daughter, Quinn, was stillborn at 26 weeks in 2005. We ran into each other on the Silent Grief message board because we were both mourning our lost babies. She has been amazingly supportive and kind to everyone who needed a little extra love. She is the first in line to cheer in celebration of good news. She is the first in line to cry with you over sad news. She was due July 24th with her second daughter, Peyton, and we all cheered for her.

A few weeks ago, an ultrasound revealed that baby Peyton was small for her gestational age but a follow-up amnio indicated that everything was normal. A few days ago, an ultrasound revealed that baby Peyton no longer had a heartbeat. Cass will be induced today...the same day that my friend Darcie will bury her sweet baby girl, Carli.

There are many things I could say right now about the loss of such wanted babies...about God...about the unfairness of it all. I could talk about how I did not sleep last night thinking of these women and the thousands like them whose fairy tale ends in a nightmare But it all seems pointless in the face of this grief. I have been sick with the stomach flu this week, but it is my heart that hurts the most.


Lori said...

All of these losses leave me heartbroken. But the multiple losses well... I just feel sick.

I am thinking of you, your friends and every parent everywhere having to say goodbye to a beloved child right now. And we know there are many.

Sara said...


I am so sad for both of your friends. I just gave birth to my second stillborn daughter at 17 weeks. I'm angry and sad that I have to go through it a second time. What really sucks is that I'm not alone. Sending thoughts of compassion and healing for a long road ahead. I'm so sorry.

msfitzita said...

Oh God, not again...

I'm so sorry - and heartbroken and angry and sick.
I'm sending my deepest sympathies and wishes for peace and healing.


Artblog said...

It's the hardest thing in the world to accept, its just horrible and it must affect you deeply, all in the same week too!

I don't know what "his" plan is, but it better be dammed good!

Kind regards and get well soon.

Shanna said...

I want to say something but just don't even have the words to express how awful I feel for everyone who has to go through that. Just know that I am thinking of you and of them in these days of sorrow.

Aurelia said...

Oh Catherine, this is just so awful...I feel so bad for your friends.

I can't understand why the world doesn't do more to prevent these tragedies.

Jill said...

The losses that have happened in your personal circle of friends in a matter of days is overwhelming. My love goes out to these families. I wish there was more to do or say. I am so very sorry for the loss of Peyton.

MB said...

So very sad. I'm so sorry for your friends and for you because I know you feel their losses too. I hope your flu goes away soon. Hugs.

Julie said...

Oh Catherine, I just dont have words. I am so so sorry for both of your friends and their families. I am so sorry they have entered into this nightmare. They will all be in my thoughts, and so will you. ((hugs))

Brenda said...

I really don't know what to say.
The last week has been just so sad.