After three years, I finally submitted my application to become a member of the American Business Womens Association. Three years of being a guest at their meetings was enough. Though technically I didn't attend three years worth of meetings since I haven't been to a meeting since just before losing Alex. But regardless, they invited me to their holiday party last night and I had such a good time with the ladies that I thought it was time I paid the dues and admitted I actually like them. I feel so grown up.