Sunday, December 31, 2006

Happy New Year

It seems there should be something. Some sort of wrap-up of the past year. Some sort of look forward to the coming year. I thought I would do one of those memes that cover them both. But it seems that most of my answers revolve around one thing. Travis. What kind of wrap-up could I possibly write about the 20 week life of a little half-baked boy?

2006 = Travis. That's all there was to it. The joy that was Travis. The sorrow that was Travis. The lifetime that happened in 20 short weeks.

Yes, there were many many many other things that happened this year. Many things that I am incredibly grateful for. Many things that brought happiness. A few things that brought sadness. But no matter what else happened, Travis cast a shadow over the entire year. For such a small half-baked boy, he sure did leave a large and lasting impression on me. It's such a shame that he never had a chance to impress the rest of the world too.

I don't know what I've learned or what I'm supposed to hope for anymore. I know I am incredibly blessed in a lot of ways, not the least of which is my beautiful Sam. I know that I miss my boys with all my heart and soul. I know that life is not fair and that it goes on whether you're ready for it or not.

As this year ends I don't know how to make resolutions. I resolve to put one foot in front of the other and do the best I can. That's all I've got left in me.

Happy New Year to all our friends and family.
May 2007 bring peace and happiness to your lives.


Jill said...

Well you know I think you're a very clued up individual, but you're wrong about one thing. Travis made one hell of an impression on the world.

His existence was a source of incredible joy to all who care about his family and his death rocked the beliefs of many who thought god or fate couldn't strike so tragically twice. Please don't think that Travis made any less of an impression than Alex or even Sam. His legacy has changed a lot of people forever.

And that little half-baked boy seemed to look so much like his dad that his likeness will be there as long as Steve is looking back at you.

Wishing you all the very best Catherine. I hope this year brings no new heartache and many moments of joy x

Cristin said...

I will think of Travis and also Alex as I ring in the new year. I want to say "I hope 2007 brings you peace", but then I want to scream at the universe and shake my fist that you have lost two boys and how strong you will be to find peace in your life.

MB said...

I'll drink to that. Cheers.

delphi said...

I just want you to know that Travis has had a huge impact in my life, too.

Here's to a 2007 that we can all enjoy.

Anonymous said...

May 2007 bring peace and happiness to you and your family, Catherine!

Anonymous said...

Travis also made a big impression in my world even though he lived and died before I found your blog.

If you can manage to put one front in front of the other, that's already a huge achievement. Some days you may not be able to do it, but I hope that those days become less and less frequent.

I wish you happiness and love for 2007. Sounds very hippy but I mean it.

Anonymous said...

I agree with everyone else -- Travis has
made a large impression on me, on us, as well.

I wish for peace and happiness for you in 2007 also.

three minute palaver said...

I also agree with everyone. Jill was so eloquent and beautiful how she said it. I often think of Travis and what you went through this year. and I don't understand why you have lost 2 beautiful boys. I don't think Alex and Travis will ever be forgotten. Their impact has been huge. and so is your impact.