You would think that with everything we've been through, we would be beyond saying, "But things like this don't happen to ME." But here I am. Long story short, the dog has some bad ick. I will not describe because it will induce vomiting in the weak-stomached and will cause nightmares in the squeamish (it did both to me).
The vet says he will recover with medication and extra TLC. It won't extend his life. He is, after all, according to the age chart on the wall of the vet's office, 90 years old. But he's still got personality, so we'll give him the best quality of life that we can until it's absolutely necessary to say goodbye. And yes M...it HAS been that long since college. :o)
Anyway...when we discovered the ick...and today at the vet's office when the vet said, "These things happen a lot," I heard myself say, "Not to us. We're good pet owners. We take care of our animals like they are family members. There is no excuse good enough that this happened." Again with the blame! I could kick myself in the head for even THINKING these things. But when I actually said them out loud...it was sort of like a big old boot fell out of the sky and squashed my brain cells into a big pancake. Did I not learn ANYTHING?!?! Like the vet said...these things happen. I should understand that point better than most. And I should also understand that the unnecessary guilt is a waste of time.
And here I thought I was so evolved now. Ha!
Yesterday I ran into yet one more person who didn't know Alex is dead.
"The last time I saw you, you were expecting a baby!" (Expectant pause for me to gush about how well our sweet child is doing...)
"Oh, I'm so sorry. You know, my sister lost a baby once and we were talking and she said, 'These things happen for a reason.'"
And you know what I did? I looked her dead in the eye and said, "Well, I don't know that I believe that, but thank you for caring enough to offer an attempt at understanding."
And you know what she did? She didn't get offended. She took a second for the realization of my words to hit her and she said, "No, I guess you might not believe that, would you?"
That's me...educating the world...one person at a time. I think I need a superhero cape. :o)