Friday, June 03, 2005

Are you sure?

Are you sure you want to delete your baby registry?

This is the question I faced this morning. I'll admit I was supposed to be working and was cruising around Amazon.com instead. Yes, I was looking for books to read about grieving for a stillborn child (the practical side of me gained control again this morning). Anyway, I was greeted by one of those automatic computer generated first pages, listing all the recommendations for me on their reading list. Of course, this was based on my last visit to Amazon.com, when I was looking up baby books. Cry-fest #2 for the day (Cry-fest #1 was on the way in to work during a sad song on the radio).

So, that, naturally led me to look at my wish list to be sure I did not have any remaining baby-intended items on there...which naturally led me to my BabiesRUs.com wish list, as they are also under the all-powerful Oz at Amazon.com. It took some searching, but I finally figured out how to delete the thing...and I was feeling ok about it until that last damn verification screen where it asks, "Are you sure you want to delete your baby registry?" Cry-fest #3 for today.

Dear BabiesRUs...

No, I'm not sure I want to delete my baby registry. In fact I really do not want to delete my baby registry. I want to have a baby registry filled with cute little boy outfits and Gund stuffed animals and baby wash. I want to still be pregnant and happy and waiting for the arrival of my baby and all the wonderful gifts I will receive for him when he gets here. I want to take my baby home and use all your wonderful products and eventually complain about all the toys underfoot.

But you see, I am no longer expecting a baby...my baby died. There will be no presents...there will be no happy arrival...there will be no baby.

So to answer your question...

No...I don't WANT to delete my baby registry. But it seems it's a necessary action to take at this time.

2 comments:

Julie said...

((((((((((hugs))))))))) The number of things we have to do are countless aren't they? Seems like they would come up with better ways to ask these things. The one that got me was "Is that what you want to go on his memorial stone?" NO, I don't WANT hime to have a memorial stone, I don't WANT him to NEED a memorial stone, I WANT him here with us! But I guess we don't always get what we WANT. It gets easier to deal with, I promise.

Julie said...

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. I have a trashcan right by the door for all the offers I keep getting in the mail; it seems to never end.
My thoughts are with you, and a big virtual hug as well.