"I just want my kids to be healthy and happy."
And then your teenage tells you he want to be an engineer who designs weapons.
You spend countless hours sifting through your memories and wondering where the missteps were.
Suddenly you realize that you've been lying all this time.
You don't want him to be happy if his idea of happiness will bring more pain into this world.
You have to admit that you really just want him to be someone you can be proud of.
You have to recognize your failure...because he doesn't give a shit about making you proud.
So you're a failure and a fraud.