tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post116164046370189959..comments2023-09-23T07:24:36.217-04:00Comments on Everything Is Under Control: And the third verse...la de da de daUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1161725273229469302006-10-24T17:27:00.000-04:002006-10-24T17:27:00.000-04:00It is a very tiring ride, and i wish there was an ...It is a very tiring ride, and i wish there was an off ticket. If i had a few, i would be happy to pass them around.katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16536809590856333391noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1161674460600959652006-10-24T03:21:00.000-04:002006-10-24T03:21:00.000-04:00I have been thinking about how I can go on. I don'...I have been thinking about how I can go on. I don't want to go on as if nothing has changed. I want something to change. I can't go on in any sort of happy way until I find a place in myself, in my psyche, in my character, in my soul, in my heart, whatever, where I can carry my son with me towards the future. Then I won't feel like I'm leaving him behind as if he never existed (I sometimes have the feeling of: tried that little project, didn't work out, let's move on to the next thing - which I hate).<BR/><BR/>Whatever has changed since he was born - I'm wondering if I can find a way to represent that change in my daily life, would it help? Like begin an activity that I didn't do before or make some other sort of change or even set up a foundation in his name, or something else I've always wanted to do? Then whenever I do that thing, I can say I only do this because my son was here. A way of integrating him into my future daily life.<BR/><BR/>I don't know if that makes any sense - it's just vague thoughts I have which aren't concrete at all yet.Rosepetalhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11198906406934870970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1161655853019344462006-10-23T22:10:00.000-04:002006-10-23T22:10:00.000-04:00I think I love you for the line, "Sam's preschool ...I think I love you for the line, "Sam's preschool Halloween party was fun only because I drank beforehand." Catherine, this part has nothing to do with grief. If anything, it makes you totally normal!<BR/>Now go back and read the entries a few weeks after Travis' death and compare you vs. now. If you can't see the difference I read, well, really, I'd be amazed. <BR/>It will never be perfect, but really who the heck has perfect?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com