tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post114779607816538343..comments2023-09-23T07:24:36.217-04:00Comments on Everything Is Under Control: Which is worse? those who know? or those who don't?Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1147824768254188542006-05-16T20:12:00.000-04:002006-05-16T20:12:00.000-04:00i was talking about being on autopilot in the NEP ...i was talking about being on autopilot in the NEP just a few days ago. i think it's a self protective mechanism. i can't relate to losing a baby, but i can to losing a dearly loved one suddenly and unexpectedly. i know how angry i was. to listen to people complain about their mother's when mine was dead. to hear people whine about the most mundane bullshit and ask my opinion. my reply was/is still so angry, "my mom is dead. i don't really care about blah, blah, blah". yeah i know it's not pc, but that's how i felt and still feel. i also felt betrayed by my mom. how could she die when i needed, loved, adored her so much? <BR/><BR/>grief is a motherfucker. people that send the "better off in heaven" or "GOD's plan" bullshit just don't know. <BR/><BR/>we actually had that stupid email in our bathroom at work and i tore it down. it's offensive and insensitive. thanks for pointing out just how unlucky i am and how GOD didn't intervene to save my mom.=) nanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10497554183146879859noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1147818259118331332006-05-16T18:24:00.000-04:002006-05-16T18:24:00.000-04:00mmmmm - i hope you had a case full of frappucinos!...mmmmm - i hope you had a case full of frappucinos!<BR/><BR/>shortly after i went back to work (i can't remember if after hans or after the tadpole), a co-worker (one who knows me well enough to know better, dammit) sent me (and only me!) one of those canned e-mails about how important it is to look at the bright side and included a vague lecture about being negative. i wanted to wring her neck. and then stomp on it a few times. and then maybe stab it with a spear a few times after that. whenever i see the least little opening of good intent, i make it a point to correct people who don't get it, but someone that criminally stupid - there's no hope for them. you were very strong to reply to that idiot.laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12650967136734094216noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1147813873183739082006-05-16T17:11:00.000-04:002006-05-16T17:11:00.000-04:00I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this. P...I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this. Peoples' comments were one of the things that made it harder for me to get through it. Some of them still bother me and it has been close to a year. I know the cry you are talking about in a previous post, the one that comes from a place that hurts so much and all you can do is scream at God that you don't want anything to do with Him any more. I said that on numerous occasions. If only there were a awitch to turn off peoples' mouths it would make the grief process a bit more bearable, I think.Beccihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02843445845439279244noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8836584.post-1147796951113215082006-05-16T12:29:00.000-04:002006-05-16T12:29:00.000-04:00*hug* of course no amount of internet hugs will do...*hug* of course no amount of internet hugs will do a thing but I'm thinking of you and sending you some love.cathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05499558026064730483noreply@blogger.com