Sunday, May 07, 2006

I wanted to make you all aware that our baby has died. I don't know why yet. I am leave to meet Cathy at the hospotial.

82 comments:

lauralu said...

oh my god, no. no! catherine and steve, i am so sorry. i wish i could do something, come hold your hand and cry with you - which i will certainly do when you're ready if you'll let me. i'm thinking of you as you make all the horrible decisions you have to make today.

Bronwyn said...

Oh my god, I am so, so sorry. This shouldn't be happening. I am thinking of all of you. I just can't believe this is happening. Much love to you all during this terrible time.

Kathi said...

Oh no no no no NO. Catherine and Steve, I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say. I love you, and I'm thinking of you all.

the ockers said...

oh my God, NO. I feel sick that this has happened to you. I am so sorry. This is so unfair. What an awful tragedy. I am hoping and wishing you find much strength to deal with this new grief. (((HUGS))) xClare

Julie said...

OH my! No. Oh I am so so very sorry. This is unfair - it just isn't right. I'm so sad for you right now, I don't know what else to say. Please know we're thinking of you and love you.

vixanne wigg said...

Oh Catherine. I can barely write. Oh no. This is so wrong.

Lorem ipsum said...

Catherine... we all grieve with you. In complete shock. Shaking. Nightmare. And so very, very, very sorry.

Tendersoul said...

I'm so so sorry. I know there are no words that can comfort you right now. Just know that we grieve with you.

Jen said...

I'm so so so sorry! My heart is with you right now. I'm just so sorry.

deadbabymama said...

Fuck. Sorry, I just need to swear while I howl at the universe. All words are completely inadequate.

pengo said...

We are so sorry. It's not fair. Our thoughts are with you. Be strong.

K. said...

I don't know if it is possible to share such unbearable sorrow with complete strangers. But one cannot bear it alone so I wanted to add my words of consolation for what they are worth.

Lisa said...

I am lost for words. I can only send prayers up for you all. Saying I'm sorry just isn't adequate. Nothing I could say would be adequate, so I will pray and hope you feel my love and prayers.

Heather said...

You are all in my heart (as you always are). I am so very sorry. That doesn't seem like enough. Life is completley screwed up and unfair.

Treggles said...

So very, very sorry.

:) n said...

oh kate & steve, i am so, so sorry. oh i'm just so sorry.

n

Mrs. Fun said...

Kate, I love you. I am pissed and hurt for you.
My prayers for strength are with you all.
Lots of hugs to Sam.

Marlayna said...

Oh Kate and Steve, and little Sam... I don't even know what to say except that I am so so so sorry. I am just in tears for you pain.

Penultimatina said...

I am speechless, and so, so sorry for your loss!

Kathy McC said...

Oh,God...Catherine and Steve I am so sorry. This is just so wrong...my stomach is sick and I am feeling much pain for you. It's just terrible....thinking of you both.

Jen said...

..I cannot find any words..I am so sorry, that is just NOT enough. I love you and I will pray for all of you.

Chan said...

This is just so unfair! So fucking unfair!
Sorry just doesn't seem enough.
Sending love accross the ocean to all of you.

delphi said...

I can't tell you how sorry I am. I wish there was more to say.

Robyn said...

I'm so terribly sorry. You're ever present in my thoughts.

Roberta said...

I'm just so, so sorry.

Sarah said...

I am so sorry. It's just not right. My heart aches for you and your family. Please know that we love you.

AJW5403 said...

I am so sorry. This should not be this way.

Mommies Esq1 said...

Oh my god.

We are sending you all the love and support we can. We're so sorry this has happened.

The universe sucks.

Kathi said...

I just keep checking back, I don't know why, just because I cannot believe that this horrible, unfair, fucked up thing could happen. I wish I had some words, or some magic potion or something. My heart is broken for you Catherine. There's something wrong with this world.

sillyhummingbird said...

I wish there was something I could say. I am just so sorry. I wish you peace--you are in my prayers.

Off Route 75 said...

I don't need to know you to share my deepest sympathies. Our children are the most precious commodity in our world. I hope your family is there so you will have loved ones to lean on. If you believe in God, I hope your prayers bring you comfort. You all are in my prayers. ~TH~

Krystal said...

I don't know you at all, but my heart truly goes out to you right now. I'm so very sorry.

Dana said...

I am so sorry. I love you. Please remember that I am here for you in any way I can be. I know that there is nothing I can do to make any of this any better but I am here anyhow. Please take care of yourself. I love you sis.

TNChick said...

Oh no, Kate, Steve, Sam. I am so sorry. I send you my love.... lift ya'll in my prayers. Nothing I can say will help, I know - but I must let you know, anyway. I'm so sorry. I don't even know what to say - I just wanna say something. If you need me -I'm here for you, Ok? I love you, Kate! My heart aches for you. I'm so sorry.

Sweet Coalminer said...

Oh no. I can't believe this is happening. I am so sorry. When I saw the link on Roxanne's blog, I prayed that it was some other Catherine. Not you. Not again. My heart's arms are holding you.

Mindi said...

I am so so so sorry, Kate. My strongest prayers are being lifted for you and your family right now. You are so loved, and your huge Junatic support system is here for you when you need us.

Julie said...

No, no, no. Oh Cathy and Steve, I am just so sorry. There just are no words. My heart breaks for both of you. This is just so wrong and so damn unfair. I am so sorry. Sending lots of hugs and prayers.

Lola said...

My thoughts are with you. I'm so very sorry for this awful, awful loss.

msfitzita said...

Oh my God...Catherine. Oh my God. No - this isn't right. This isn't fair. Oh God.

I'm thinking of you - of all of you - and praying for peace, understanding and everything else I know is going to be next to impossible for you to find.

I'm just sick about this. And I'm so, so, so sorry. I wish there was something I could do. I wish there was something I could do to make this not be happening.

NervousKitty said...

Oh God, Catherine, I am so very sorry. No one should have to go through this. I can't think of anything to say that doesn't sound totally inadequate, but please know that I am thinking of you and Steve and Sam.

Laura said...

Oh Catherine, I am so, so sorry. I can't believe this. Oh, please know that I am praying for you and Steve and little Sam. I am sending you lots of love. Anything I write won't be enough to express how much my heart is breaking for you and your family. This is so unfair.

Sherry said...

Oh, no! I can't believe this has happened! I'm so terribly sorry, Catherine ... I'm thinking and praying for all of you.

Heather said...

I keep coming back here hoping it was just a scare and there is an update. I am so very sorry. I love you Kate. I am sending every ounce of love and strength I have your way.

Anna said...

Oh my God. No way. I am in complete shock. Crying my eyes out for you both...Love and strength to you.

R said...

Oh. my. God. why.

MB said...

Oh My God. I am so unbelievably sorry. i don't even know the words. I'm just so sorry.

M

Mandy said...

I'm so very, very sorry. Oh my God.

kelly jeanie said...

I'm so sorry. I am praying for you and your family.

KB said...

I'm so sorry. There are no words, I know that, but I'm still so very sad for you.

Diana said...

NO!!!!my God Catherine I am sososososo sorry. There are no words...
You are in my prayers.

Sherri said...

Cathy & Steve, I am so very deeply sorry. I wish there were words that could say or convey more. Your family is in my heart. I wish there were more that any of us could do.

miraclebaby said...

You don't know me, but I saw your blog link on Lola's site. I just want you to know how sad I am for you and let you know that I am thinking of you. We also know what it is to lose a child and live with fear in the subsequent pregnancy. We lost our first child last June and are currently in a very high risk pregnancy. Things like this leave me speechless. I do not understand why it happens, and why some people have such a long, hard road. Again, I am truly sorry for your losses. I don't know what else to say....

Jennifer said...

your pain must defy description.

So sorry for your troubles.

You are in my prayers.

h. said...

Cathy & Steve,

I only know you through Donutbuzz (my brother's blog), but I wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts, and I'm very sad and shocked to hear about your loss.

Hilary

Mel said...

Kate.. no words can express to you how sorry I am. I love you Kate. I am here to offer you anything I can even if its just the knowledge of knowing I am thinking of you and praying for you.

Pam said...

I'm so so sorry. You're all in my thoughts.

MidlifeMutant said...

Thinking of you.

Julian's Mom said...

I am heartbroken by the unfairness that this has happened to you again. Those of us in this community live with the fear that the worst can and does happen, but I think it affects us much more deeply when it happens to "one of our own." There's nothing anyone can say that will take away your pain, but just know that there is a world of strangers out here grieving right along with you.

marsha_tm said...

My thoughts are with you. Your story has touched many people.

serenity said...

Oh no oh no. I am but a stranger, but my heart aches for you both. Peace and love to you during this horrible time.

Janice said...

You don't know me but I was led to your blog from another blog. I just wanted you to know that you and your family are in my prayers. Life is just so unfair sometimes.

Sorry just doesn't seem to cut it. Words are so inadequate in a moment like this.

Zarqa said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Jill said...

Oh no! I am so so sorry. So angry for you and Steve and Sam. Sending you all my love Sweetie, you have been in my thoughts constantly and will remain so.

XOX

kati said...

Catherine, I'm so, so sorry.

R said...

Catherine, I keep endlessly refreshing. I don't know what I'm wanting to find...probably that it was all a big mistake and the baby's fine. I am so, so sorry. I have been thinking of you all day. Nonstop.

Becky said...

I am so sorry. I cannot believe this is happening to you, Steve, and Sam. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Love,
Becky

gabesmama said...

Catherine & Steve -
My heart bleeds for you both. You're all my thoughts & prayers.
Love-Rebecca

Dana said...

Kate - I just wanted you to know that you, Steve and Sam have been in my thoughts and prayers since I first read the news and will remain there. I am just so unbelievably saddened by this news. I am so, so sorry. We are all here for you, in any way we can be. We all love you so much. You know where to find us when you're ready. Love you. xoxo

Mrs. Fun said...

I keep coming back. not sure what for, i keep hoping this is just a lie.
Kate, i love you and i am thinking of you, steve and sam.keeping my prayers strong for you and your family.

cat said...

Catherine and Stephen our deepest sorrow for what you have to endure right now. We are mourning with you here and you are in our thoughts.

One Mother's Journey said...

I am so very sorry.

Kate said...

*de-lurking*

I am so, so sorry.

Take care of yourself.

We'll be here when you get back.

kate said...

I have been offline....i am so so sorry. I cannot understand how this could happen, i cannot imagine what you are going through.

I sent you a package for Alex's birthday, before i heard this news. So i will be sending another one soon.

You are in my thoughts....

Sarah said...

I'm late getting online, and so shocked and saddened... and hoping that it is just a crazy nightmare that we will all wake up from. I don't know what you are feeling, but know that many (over 70 so far!) are incredibly saddened and angry that this little one won't get to come home with you and join you, Steve, and Sam. Sending as much love as I can over the web.

ethanbsmommy said...

I'm so so sorry.
I wish there were better words.

Kayte said...

I'm sorry.

TNChick said...

I'm back - with a hug. I just wish I could be there to give you on, instead. :(

eph2810 said...

I am so sorry to hear that you lost your baby. You and yours will be in my prayers.

V said...

I feel for you, I really, really feel for you. My baby of 11 months old passed away on 24 March this year. It starts off with lots and lots of bad days but with time the bad days get fewer and then turn into bad moments. I am still having bad days and good days with bad moments thrown in. But you probably know all this already. I am really sorry for all that you have been through.

knit_tgz said...

I have no words. I am so sorry...

Lisa P. said...

Oh Catherine, I have been offline for a while and came back to find this. I'm so very sorry. And still that is not enough. ((((hugs))))

Windfall Woman said...

I am so very very sorry. My prayers are with you.